mahwish

2011-07-05T17:20:00.005+08:00

Its only tuesday and im already waiting for friday to come. Its such a long day... *mustbebecauseimfasting* hahaha

I have no idea what is wrong with me this past few days. i wld blame my lack of planning last weekend but lol, tt doesnt seem to have any significance to any of the clumsy moments i experienced this few days. Mayb im just accident prone. n clumsy. *hatetoadmitit*

it started with last saturday, i slept late the night before like at,4? So i wasnt really in the best mood the next morning. Suddenly suddenly while i was sleeping, my father knocked on the door and said, "adik, nak g JB tak? Pergi siap cepat." its not exacty a question, but i said errrghh and 'malaised' on my bed for a while more. but feeling 'malaised', i decided, id better just siap incase the tiger in him decided to roar.

So we went JB, abrupt decision. we went shopping and eating. >.< didnt get anything much other than food. wel the story is actually on the way home. While me n my bro rode from woodlands checkpoint, took the TPE, which unfortunately, while in the middle of the expressway, the bike went, "POMP!" n my bro steered it to the side. Well, the bike broke down. UNlucky us. we had to wait like nearly 1 hour n a half dalam semak, sebelah longkang. sungguh malang. well, in movies n novels, theres always this cute guy who'll stop n help u out, but im sorry to burst the bubble, tt only happens in boks n dramas. NOT HAPPENNG. Singaporeans basically drive past u like WOOOSH... n the embarrassment, tahap agongsss. ishk. tahu dudok ruma blaja lagi afdal.

Alot of other incidents, for eg: this apek knocked the card off my hand when i wanted to tap, it fell directly in between the bus and the interchange platform, i had to bongkok ~~tonggek~~ on my way down at the alighting door. N THE APEK NEVER SAY SORRYY! apek apek~ emberassing much. then my pin fell off in the middle of the pathway,, yet again i have to bongkok while theres some ppl RIGHT BEHIND me. *muke mlau taktau nk letak mane*
I smiled at random people, not like *sweet small smile* but *BIGGRIIN* without any reason. i think, ive lost my mind.

p/s: changes may be good.

*ignore my face*

2011-06-24T00:08:00.006+08:00

HAD A BLAST TODAY. XD Im a happy kid. a happy broke kid. ^__^

crazy kids <3

we celabrated nini's birthday today. its super super fun. lol, long time no see kids. hehe had a great laugh. all the jokes n watnots. perangai mcm org gilak.

I went out like, at noon? me, my mum and sis went to arab street to send my dress for tailoring watnots. my mum has been making a fuss out of it, lol, as if im the one getting married. i dun mind, really, like a new dress for my sis's wedding is just -_-'' when i expressed my 'discomfort' abt my mum's nagging for the dress thingy, she said, "Abeh ko nk pkai baju koyak??" lol, macam lah den tarak baju lain yang tak koyak. apapejugaklahmakakunik.

I tried fika for the first time. well, the desert atleast. the strawberry cheesecake was really nice. :) very cheesy, not for those who dislike cheese. or cream. or whatever it is. hehe the place is real cosy tho. when theres nt many ppl. XD but its quite ex. heh

then i went to pray at tm, took the train to airport n met the others there. Its a surprise for nin, since she was supposed to be mugging. haha super fun. we laughed like org gilak. ate like org happy. n played like org takde keje lain.

bnyk kerja yang tergendale, but for now, i shall stay happy with *biggrin* plastered on my face

oh, n whats weird, i lost my phone memory card. weird right? its INSIDE my phone, yet still, i managed to lose it. haish. weirdly too, im not really that sad. shall wait till tomorow, see if the sadness come. heh

p/s: i wish i have my own Derek n Yang.

2011-05-20T00:18:00.001+08:00

i had an extremely bad day, but hey, who cares right? im just some random girl in ur life anyway. no worries.

2011-05-18T21:19:00.005+08:00

i have to say, oc was expected. my fault for not revising amines and all, but i am really disappointed i have to say. i studied my ass off, only managed to fall asleep at 4, and yet, sigh. disappointing.
Lots of work to be done. I need to get all my tutorials, online assgnments and watnots done, so i cn relax for the weekend. *doubt it* more quizzes ahead. all the way~

cant wait for term break.

2011-05-11T19:08:00.006+08:00

Its week 3, so of course, the quizzes are like, extremely near. its gonna be a difficult, tiring, long weekend. or short, depending on how u see it. Term test and all, wow, really need to do my revisions. im slacking this sem. like really slacking. haila. Buck up Marinah!
its raining suddenly. the weather's like so weird these days. hot humid, suddenly dark n raining. :(
Really need to organize my thoughts, n schedule my revisions coz im realaly starting to panic. PUO tutorial quiz soon, french vocabs like nah-dah. grammer takya cakap lah. haish. study marinah studdyyyyyy!!

p/s: i dun like thursdays. its tiring.

2011-05-06T21:07:00.011+08:00

i lost my lovely red watch which was a gift from kak yam for my birthday. i am so sorry.. really. i love tt watch like, <3 X infinity. its so simple and easy to read. no weird numbers, no wacky designs, just numbers n hands. i dunno if im careless or what, but really, i think i took it off like during wudhu, then mayb i frgt to put t back on. but i came back to the toilet like, 2 mins later? like really coz my wudhu batal so i had to take it one more time *long story.. haha *but its gone. lke, GONE. im so sad.*insert extremely disappointed face*

ITS blokus of fun!!

So we ended up going to the mind cafe today. lol. had great fun playing taboo. its damn exciting and extremely loud when theres 2 ppl describing and 2 ppl guessing. all sorts of things came out. lol

me: "ITS *hum the friday song tune*"

hafifah: MY LIFEEE!!!??

lol, no dear, its friday. since today is the so-called eve of public holiday, its nt really worth it coz it cost us 60 bucks for like 4 person, so please do check when u decide to go, that its not eve, ph or sat n sun. its nt exactly cheap to play a few games for 10 bucks. >.<

its the end of week 2 but the game is on. quizzes coming soon. must chiong all the way. no kiddin. its weird how we all feel like this sem is so much more slacky than the last, but really, this like only make us much much more anxious. too much free time, too little time spent on studying. so it is definitely important now, to go book some self study rooms at the library, and sit down there n digest my notes.

for now, its tutorial time. lots to bed done. lets start with fpath. :) Happy studying peeps. <3

lms

p/s: its extremely annoying to not be able to highlight my notes. :(

2011-05-04T22:24:00.010+08:00

i get annoyed easily nowadays. like when i dont get what i really want, like even for eg, watching tv or something, i get so bitter and have a REALLY hard time calming myself down. its like, i wanna be nice and considerate, n not be selfish all. but its just so hard for me to like, keep a straight face n act unaffected. like my mind is like gfzs hfgag ygf f and i feel like screaming my lngs out or feeling as if i wanna cry but its like for just some small thing. or big mayb. but i shall be more -_- in the future. tts my goal for now. be calm like a ninja always

School have officially started n we're into week 2. :) so far so good. modules this sem is much more chem-y. not good. hahaha but too bad, im in phs n i shall go all in. this sem is exciting? in a different way? hahaha raidah's in tp (Y) but lol, i havent seen her this week at all. different classes n all. amirah pon jumpe jarang jarang dah. n lol, ibu's students, my cousin, juniors... lol, alot of new? familiar faces. quite fun. :)

Im loving FPATH. its like, very medical-ly. u learn abt autopsies, diseases, the cause, the types, the contributing factors, the different kind of studies. its very VERY interesting. but weve been warned so many times that PHS is kind of weak in bio subjects, so we shall watch out for FPATh. i hve to agree coz like, even the open book quiz is like chllenging, but im still loving it. :)

OC2 is the killer this sem i think. need revisions. lots of them. Dr Ong's extremely strict, -like dont TALK! strict- ehhehe but its good for us. we learn to really listen and pay much MUCH MORE attention during lectures. Im gonna have to chiong like mad if i wanto raise my gpa. himane!

school starts at noon tomorrow so i cn sleep late n wake up late tomorrow. :D contemp french is at 6 all the way to 9 but itsokay... i cn see eunhyuk for 3 hours then.

who says you're not worth it?

2011-03-19T22:10:00.009+08:00

belajar bersyukur.

i think, mcm makin tua, its only right that we learn to say Alhamdulillah more often. Alhamdulillah theres no problem wif today. alhamdulillah my family is healthy today. Alhamdulillah my friends are safe. Altho we have problems, im in the process of learning to value every single smile every day. as long as u, fam, friends are healthy, safe and happy, im happy. its not tt diff to be happy if u dont put r expectations up too high.

Last thursday was a blast. had lots of fun with my friends.. always my bffs. altho we all have some regret, sadness, tears n all, we try to keep it in n enjoy the day as it is. for me atleast. :) unsettled i was, but mayb its just coz, i need some time to sit down, stare and digest my results. seeing my friends doing well, it becomes a motivation for me to do better n strive harder for the next sem. Its all about plain hard work, doa and having the drive to do well.

lol, of course theres tears, cried like a baby, headaches, come to think of it, im an ungrateful brat. im actually quite happy with my marks, to know that ive improved, its like, all those hard work, sacrifices are all worth it. heh. alhamdulillah. but lol, being an annoyingly competitive person, lets strive harder n go for the gold. When i was down, ayah said something that really soothed me. he said, quoting from surah ibrahim, verse 7,

And [remember] when your Lord proclaimed, 'If you are grateful, I will surely increase you [in favor]; but if you deny, indeed, My punishment is severe.' - quoted from here

learn to say alhamdulillah. even when u r down. even when its so painful, even when it hurts so much. therell always be something that u r grateful for. for being able to smile, for being able to walk, listen and talk, for the family which supported u thru ur problems n pains, for the friends whos always there to listen to u, even to the fact, that u r alive today. being given the chance to correct ur mistakes, ask for forgivesness, n enjoy life as it is. Alhamdulillah. and insyaAllah, if its meant to be, Allah janji Dia akan tambah kan? Allah tak pernah memungkiri janjiNya.

peace, adios my loved ones.

2011-01-14T01:29:00.002+08:00

today is okay i guess. japs nt that bad. hehehe i actually enjoy most of my classes, its just that i really reaallly dun like all the presentations and stuff. lol, good thing i never take business course.

one of the reasons i dun like Thursdays is because of jap. firstly, because its somewhere unfamiliar, at business school. secondly, im nt that close with anybody there n i sometmes have no idea how to react to some conversations. my bad.

tomorrows m csas practice session, lets hope i do weell for both the practice n the real thing.

p/s: i miss u, appear in my sight pretty please?

2011-01-01T01:06:00.011+08:00

A new year it is. Happy new year my dearies! :)

2010, a year has passed, the year of change. I had the most changes in my life last year, n i cant really say i liked it all.. but i guess im trying to adapt still. i got the taste of working, experience the so called 'culture-shock', getting along with new friends in a new school, new way of teaching, new subjects and alot of other new stuffs.

TBH, 2010 was kind of challenging for me. i learnt that sometimes, what affects u, ur mood, ur emotions, ur life, is not just ur life, ur problems, ur troubles. its about everyone in ur life. no matter how small or big their part is in ur life, they still have that effect on u. U feel their sadness, happiness or anything at all.

'Ada hikmah disebalik musibah ni.' ive been told so many times, ive said this so many times. but i finally understood wat it really meant, not that i dont believe it before. But, really, seeing, or experiencing that is, is believing. u learn to accept that its not always like wat it seems on the outside, its deeper than that. its not just seeing, or reading, its abt understanding wat it really is.

Although at that moment, u felt so low u thought ull drown with all the sadness in the world, u will realize soon after that u became a stronger , more understanding, a better person mayb wif that. Its difficult, but take ur time, ull surely get that feeling then, soon or later.

2010, i became an introvert i think. not shy introvert, just, as quoted from here "more concerned with the inner world of the mind. "

-"They enjoy thinking, exploring their thoughts and feelings. They often avoid social situations because being around people drains their energy. this is true even if they have good social skills. After being with people for any length of time, such as at a party, they need time alone to 'recharge'."

Lol, that totally explains how i feel.

On the bright side, i got to make alot of new friends this year in a bigger new school. hehehe *im loving the library XP* n the lovely buddies, mimi,leyda,picky,ha,nadia,nini,echa, thankyou for always making time to meet up no matter how busy u r. really, the surprises n watnots, saying u wont come n u came, saying u have plans but still meet up, thanks alot. really. love u guyssss

and of course, i love my family more n more each day. I thank Allah for all that He has given me. Alhamdulillah.

2010-12-30T14:37:00.002+08:00

im really not in the best state of health i guess. da tuwek. :(

haiyo.. my whole bodys aching, my runny nose is running back to me, my jaw is just, annoying, my ear is killing me and my knuckles, lets not start. lol, demam nk bukak skola. hahaha

really sey, i wanted to go outing n i end up nt gg. ibu ajaked me klua go see doctor, body too lazy to go out. *lol, buat perangai* n the fact that next week is school week, haish... malas nyeeee~~ n its nt till wat, the next sem break till we have loong holidays. :(

CSAS, Jap, aish, presentations.. *faints*

2010-12-16T15:53:00.002+08:00

totally totally crash my holiday mood. like, totally.

first it was this, then it was tt. n now, im the contact person of my jap grp. nt tt my grp is bad or anything, just, not so outspoken? n the fact tt we r doing role play is just, _____. n one of the one who i can relate to, kindoff, flew off to another grp. disappointed like wat can? so now, im left with a very quiet guy n an mia girl. so wat shd i do?

u noe im nt the kind who, like, can live with all the uncertainties, like except for the ones i really cnt do anything abt, i hate the feeling of having to do something but i dunno wat.

i mean, i really wanna do well. but, its awkward, n im lost. really,, its nt like its her fault or anything, but when i saw the msg, it kind of made me lose all the yay-ness of finishing termtest week.

i shldnt think much abt this, but i dunno. mayb i shd get this jap thing over n done wif. :(

so much for party-mood-after-term-test.

p/s: totally crash my party. im a sad person. n i ~~hate~~ dislike presentations.

2010-12-03T19:12:00.002+08:00

me: kalau adik donate blood boley?

him: klau tak boleh, boleh?

me: bolehlah.. one time aje.. nak experience aje...

him: suke hati adiklah, klau pengsan taktau eh...

lol, i just realized, in my sec school years, i blacked out quite a few times. ferst one was during sec 1. lol, that was the most memorable. hahah sec 2 i think once? sec 3 quite a few times, sec 4? hmm... alot? suddenly ZzZzZ. heh

2010-11-19T18:55:00.002+08:00

a hectic week indeed.

the past few weeks have been, ___.

i have a lot of things i wanna say. but mayb not now.

for now, i need to get my tuts, lab and revisions done.

but im gg chalet. im not expecting much, but mayb this 'trip' can clear my mind a bit.

n then, i need to work my buttsoff for the upcoming week. Himnae marinah!

n to all the other ppl who need it, GOOD Luck. we can work through this.

p/s: im always here for u. even if nt physically.

2010-10-24T00:52:00.002+08:00

im annoyed. fine?

im not fine.

im angry.

im sad. but u dont really know do u?

u expect me to be understanding...

fine, ill try to be, but im not tt strong.

im a kid. im only 17.

u tell me all sorts of things, i listen.

i tell u things, but other things seem to interest u more.

i feel bad, but oh so i thought, im just being selfish.

i wanto stop being selfish

but im tired of being being the only understanding one.

i really am.

everybody else knows this. i think.

except for u.

please.

would u just, for once, ask me whats going on in my life.

just once.

n i can die happily insyaAllah.

2010-10-22T20:34:00.002+08:00

if im not here, it wont matter to u guys. so y bother?

i got french and japanese for my cds. n im totally scared. takut tahap..... langet? seriously. i dun even know much of japanese except for aishiteru n itadakimas all, n french is only like bonjour and je t'aime. so yeah... im gonna struggle like wat i think.

not only tt, no frens in the same lectures or tut, haish... big sigh.. big big sigh. thats y i hate changes. i really do. the stress, wahlau. im gonna be a geeker person than i already am next sem. i mean, i thot im so geeky already in sem 1, its gonna be worse in sem 2 i guess. dieee~

please please pray for me, n to all the other peeps who are having a hard time in any way, we can do it. we are gonna make it. no matter how hard it is. okay?

i wanted to say sorry, but seeing u tt way, i dunno.

2010-10-05T20:27:00.007+08:00

TIME is weird. very very weird.

at times, u feel that it is going really, really fast. Especially when u have something to complete. But at others, it pasts by very slowly.. that, as if, u can see the fan spin around, in slow motion. As if. U can sleep for 8 hours, but its just so difficult to stay awake while studying for say what, an hour? But its still the same time. the same second. the same minute. the same hour. its a wonder right?

Lol. but for me, whats important is not how fast or how slow u THINK the time goes by, its just how u spend every single second of it. you cant turn back time. n its almost absurd to spend every single second of ur life doing something fruitful, important, profitable or even beneficial to the family, community, society and the world. etc. Its near impossible to say that for normal human beings like us, which sometimes crave for randomness, crappiness, or even something that you just know will not do any good to u,or anybody else, but you just want it. Well, sad to say, or otherwise, we ARE human beings.

So, the most that we can do, is just, i think we should spend our wakeful, conscious and alert time doing something worthwhile. even if its not all the time. then atleast, we wont be counting the no of sheep in the middle of the night, or stare at the clock, just to ensure that the clock is working. How about some Quran or book reading, or outdoor activities, or even just spending your time with ur family members and ur buddies. :)

2010-09-30T19:23:00.001+08:00

im torn.

LoneLiness

2010-09-23T10:29:00.005+08:00

sometimes, i feel lonely. i feel sad.

suddenly when i look around, "wheres my friends?"

n then it seems like theres no one close enough. no one with me, beside me.

its hard. its difficult. at times, u worry too much about ur family, u stayed at home far too long just to please them... but then it gets lonely. very lonely. its like for a moment, ur relationships with others were stopped. for a sec then, u wonder, is this really worth it. being with family n not with friends. not that friends are less important, not that family is more important, just, you start to think, if its all worth the loneliness.

maybe this is because i disappoint people way too much, that i am the one who ends up being disappointed. funny isn't it. people might think im being proud, unfriendly. but its not that. i hope im not that. i seriously do.

2010-09-17T21:59:00.002+08:00

dah bertaun asa tak blog.

dah berhabok, berkarat, berasap dah blog nik.

tapi still takde bende yg exciting enuf to blog abt.

exams. its over. for now. results nik yang problem. but so far... blom masok panic mood. maseh lepak lepak kat rumah. main computer. laptop pinjam.. hehe

i want a laptop. :( psl i cnt find a way to baikkan my desktop. n i dont even bother sgt.. psl die dah buat hal so many times im just tired. suke hai die lah nk carik pasal. GERAAMMM! so i need the computer before school reopens. seriously.

i have no life these past few days. laze around. read some books' watch some videos. n tt would be it. alamak. takder life. but im too lazy to care. hahahaha

see see.. i miss a lot of ppl. hope o see them soon. hope to see u guys soon. :)

2010-08-09T15:30:00.004+08:00

ok.. it all started when the jam in the jamban rosak -pardon my language >.< -

i have no idea how, but u noe the paper or watever u call it yg kat dlm ja

m tu retak n terkkoyak.. i wonder how in the world tt happened.. its not as if ader yg rajen panjat sampai atas dan pecahkan the cover of the jam semata mata utk koyakkan that paper with numbers. but surprisingly its torn.. so we didnt have any clock in the bathroom for abt a month? nobody bothered to take it down n do something abt that clock. so yeah.

until today tt is. ayah decided to bring it down. n well, putting my hand n brain to good use, i made a new jam for the jamban! cut here, paste there... n heres the product.

i noe! the 6 burok rite? haha cacat~

=D i noe its not nice. kekeke... marinah pe.. art n craft.. lol. but hey, berbakti pade keluarga k.. tau tak betape susahnye takde jam dlm toilet.. slalu lambat k... :p

hehe.. so me n buddies went out together aft so long... lol, the jc-ians are all abt malay stuff, haha u noe her not? u noe him not? u saw her not? u saw him? hahaha

then the tp-ians were like, its not fair rite? so many quizzes.. but finish already so yay!! welcome holidays!!

then the media students were like zombies... happy zombies? lol, glad tt they finished their assignments.. kekee

and raidahs like, ok kids! u guys go on n rant. ill be the adult here. heheheheehe

DeARIES!!

lol.. glad tt i met u all man.. u guys made my day! iftar outing coming up! to us for our exams, GOGO! good luck to u too leyda, prelims chickenmackedodol la~ hehe

2010-08-02T17:29:00.003+08:00

today is officially my bad day. :(

the moment i woke up, 1) i fell off the bed.

then abg hyper tahap irritating n 2) i was angry at him.?? mean me. marah pasal org gembire. hee`

ate some food, n had 3) stomachache all the way to school -now i noe y i hate eating breakfast-

then went to school n 4)forgt to bring my lab report.

sat for my csas paper, n felt tt 5) i did kind of badly.

thinking abt my papr, walked out of the class, 6) leaving my bottle of water, which i just bought, taken only 2 sips.

during break, at food n 7) splatter some on my tudung.

8) realize tt my graph might be wrong... n figured out, i kind of dun care anymore.

9) gt home, hungry, masokkn roti dlm oven, n burnt my hand on the hot grill, or watever u call it.

so thats my sad story for today. harinik takde rezki. mayb im just born clumsy. haiiish! annoyed nyee.. knape marinah cmnik? >.<

2010-07-31T01:29:00.002+08:00

abg kater adek pbg. perangai budak gemok. lol

but wow, seriously' i slept like a log the moment i reached home. smayang asar' teros tidor. bngun 5 minit smayang maghrib' sambong tidur sampai pukol 10. wow... i guess im really tired. hehe friday slalu hari paleng pemalas...

results so far, lower than first quiz... tapi takpela... Alhamdulillah... i shd be thankful. i realize tt im a bittt.. just a biittt.. more hardworking than when im in secondary school.. tts kinda weird to be honest. hehee as u all noe, im very slacckkiish at school.

i guess, it started with having no known-before-frens in my class. ive learnt to stand up on my own two feet n not rely on others. i used to be dependent on my buddies... but i guess, i realize tt i cnt do it now. n i want good marks. i think the fact tt the start is not as comfortable as always is good. makes me work harder. but it gets better with time. :) hehe my classmates are really helpful.. veryy fun. :)

its a totally different environment i shd say, sacrifices for better.. hehe the only problem now' i dun like gg out. like seriously. i hate gg out during weekday' n i hate gg out at weekends. PBG marinaaa....

2010-07-30T12:47:00.005+08:00

abg downloaded maher zain's full album last week. he keeps on playing it every morning... n every nite. i woke up to it, went to sleep wif it. once, "For the rest of my life" came up, n i said,

me: just realized how sweet this song is.
abg: yupyup.. nice song...
then we listened quietely...

i then realize how, even after a million times of replaying the same song, not until much later, do u realize hw sweet a song is,how deep its meaning is, the message behind the song.

that brought me to think like how, sometimes, other ppls hardwork are sometimes ignored, u dont think much abt it.. but when it come to urs, u want it to be appreciated. how greedy human can b. how selfish a person can b. its funny. like how long does it take for a person to write such loving n sweet lyrics' but just because its another 3 min song in ur mp3, its like nothing. just another song.

like how everyday mothers cook the food, feed u, but we can actually count the number of times we praised it.. no the mention how many times we actually complained abt it. just because they do it everyday. just because. we take tt for granted. but when u r the one cooking, then u noe hw it feels when u r being treated the same way. tts y i say, or think, tt humans, are sometimes too selfish. self centered.

im included.

2010-07-24T07:16:00.002+08:00

like finally, its saturday.

lets recap wat i did for the last 2 weeks.

wake up arnd 6 plus, subuh, make abg punya bekal, kemas kemas, n get ready for school.

come back home from school arnd 7 or 8, pray maghrib, cuci baju, kemas kemas, by the time dah pukol 10. finish all my homeworks n tutorial. n ill be dead by then. on good nights, i still hve the strength to study. on bad nites, ill be so knocked out aft cleaning' tt i dont have the urge to study, only homeworks, no revision. normal timing to sleep 215 am.

its totally a different kind of exhaustion. i used to say im tired, i guess, its mentally... too much 'studying', those kind of tired. nowadays, my body ache, like really ache, my hand all sore, my brain isnt helping with my school work either. its tiring, n difficult.

at times i just feel like i wanna give up. dowaana do this anymore, but hey, it will b too dirty i cnt even concentrate. shish. wats worst is im doing it alone. cleaning up abgs room, when he always leave his mess behind. wash his clothes. i cnt believe im doing it alone. always thinkin wat to eat today, im starting to nag like my mother. heh

ok, this is a long post. im practically whining. mayb im a spoilt brat. but this is really hard for me to handle, with all the quizzes , reports... ive never slept -as in letak kpale ats meja sleep- in lecture at all, a record i guess, but i slept for the ferst time on last thurs for like wat, 20 mins?followed by yest.

for now, my mum n dad is coming back. LOVE! hehe n ninis bahas is today. coz im too tired, iwas knocked out the moment i switched on my comp yest. gt home, try to clean everything to avoid kene marah today.

abg: adik, besok syawal eh?

me: huh?

abg: asl kau kemas mcm org gile? hehehehehe

me: kau nk kene marah ngan ibu kape? =.=

i cleaned from 5 to 7 plus yest. ate, watch some videos with abg, n the moment i switched on my comp, i slept.

sso i missed a few things. NINI, wo ai ni! u cn do this k! bittaufik wannajah.. we have faith in u!

2010-07-17T13:38:00.002+08:00

i survived? hahaha a week... a week more.. CAIYO!

haha im whining alot these days.. nt to mention nagging.. sorry abg.. but hes making a mess... like grrr.... dunno hw to clean aft himself. chet.

washing, cleaning, 'cooking', studying... wow, i cnt believe i made it thru... its draining all my energy. i almost died. wif all the xtra classes, quizzes, tests, thank Allah, weekend is here.

alot is coming.. Ramadhan, Exams, n all.. but i think ill take one step at a time.

Himnae to evryone else! have faith, be strong ok? well make it thru! GOGO!

2010-07-11T21:25:00.001+08:00

im dying~ seriously.. the stress is no joke.

haish.. BMLC time for nw, i need to revise for quiz, study for tutorial, which i have a feeling i wont b gg to tomoro... so yeah. bt i still have to study.

im gonna miss my parents.

p/s: i miss u alot.. i cnt control it.. or cn i?

2010-07-08T18:06:00.003+08:00

u noe, it feels like, my real class is the bambinas. weird rite? i no... but i always feel like, oh, this poly life is just temporary, n tt one day, we will all sit together again in the same classroom... talking crap.. etc, studying tafser, hadis together.. dozing off... laughing at za zainabs random jokes... all tt, but its nt gona happen rite? were nt gg back... sigh...

lol, sometimes i find it funny to be an adult, n hw when u think back, u realize, hw uve become more thankful to Allah, when everything seems to be gg smoothly, for even a day.. u noe, like, Alhamdulillah, im happy wif today.. when last time, u dont really care... like, all u care abt is playing.. n ur biggest prob is someone took ur toy or sumtin. heh for example,

in sec 1, we complain so much, must balek abit later than 1250, coz ader xtra classes, then in sec 4, we realize hw fortunate we r then, coz at sec 4, we can only leave after 4...

But now, haha, surprisingly, we don even noe wat tyme we'll be home each day, with random classes gg on, discussions, cca, etc... some classes at 5, some lectures start at 7... some even have to go home at 9...

then, in secondary school, we used to have test like once in a month or two, n we used to complain so much... like, y teacher give us alot of tests, hafal bnyk bende.. complain complain...

but nw, theres quizzes -which is as scary as test n exams- 2/3 week after school reopens, pop quizzes in tutorials here n there, tutorial quizzes.. etc.. we are very fortunate if we can escape 3 days w/o any quizzes.

then again, we used to argue over our marks, try reasoning abt our answers... lol. n if we r like half mark away from pass, the kind teachers are generous enuf to give,

but now, half mark to pass means fail. fail means fail. tts it. n u can only sigh abt it.

n we ALWAYS complain abt 3 periods of fiqh, in total, 1.5 hours.

but nw, u cant even say anything with 4 periods of HAP = a total of 4 hours of biology. 2 hr lecture, 2 hr tutorial. too bad... u just have to live with it.

as u grow older, i guess, u bcome more thankful abt the littlest things, like when u r so tired, when u feel like u dont have the strength, a sweet can wake u up, a smile can make u feel alot better. :D life is good at the mo, but u donno hw long itll last. so cherish every moment. i guess, tts the best way :)

2010-07-03T00:09:00.001+08:00

i need to spit it out, n i need to talk it out somewhere!!!

OMG, cant believe brazil is out. SHIZZITSS... not when i dun watch the match, but when i do... SO HEARTBREAKINGG!!!!! aiyyaaaaaaa....

n twitter is giving me whales... like seriously.. guess everybodys tweeting abt the match. stupid hollang! stupid stupid!! all the bad words are comin out nw.. hehe`

ok, need to calm down ferst.. toodles~

2010-06-26T22:34:00.003+08:00

lol, today was a blessing. until this moment.. for now.

alhamdulillah.. nari rezki bnyk :D

Alhamdulillah again, nini won :D hehehehehe good job dear... u deserve it, ur hard work.. :D congrats` *magic hugs*

i love my aya, i love my ibu. i love my kakak, i love my abang. i love my cuzzins , i love my bffs. i love my bambinas, i love my classmates. i love u all.

im saying love too easy nowadays, but as kris allen said, or sang for tt matter,

"how come we dont say,

i love u, enuf,

till its too late...

its not too late~"

2010-06-25T22:42:00.005+08:00

had a dream... must be thinking too much abt yu again. heh.. hopin it will come true. hehe

life is okay so far... the week is okay.. only my results... haiyo.. disappointin... 3Cs? 1 C+, 1 B+ and 1 A. i noe.. i seriously shd work harder... mstats, u better watch out, im gonna solve all ur problems and score! hap, Oc, i guess, i just have to work smarter...

i love bmlc. i love hap. i love the lecturers too.. i don get it y ppl hate them. true tt they have some issues here n there, just, dont be too mean okay? :)

i realize i like long talks... those deep ones, like when tutors take the time to talk to u n noe more abt u. guess not everyone likes it... but im thankful for tt :)

p/s: saw u a million times, but u never smiled at me, not once. or mayb im blind in tt sense.

2010-05-25T21:36:00.004+08:00

oh, yaaah.. lab today was fun!! hehehee

we did some blood n urine test.. wow, my fren was the one who gt pricked, but i trembled like wat when im collecting the blood using micropipette.. wow, the pressure when everybodys like watching u.. hahaha i cant even get the tip out, then i suck the wrong way etc.. hahah so funny... mr lloyd is like, y are u trembling? ur fren is like the one dying.. heheheheh XD

we get to use more new high tech stuffs! haha like the centrifuge n vortex... wow, didnt noe tt someday ill get to use these cool stuff i only see in csi. haha :D well, but it can b biohazardous. *wink* always remember, practice good lab skills. precision, accuracy, speed n safety. heheh so mr lloyd.

:D lab is fun, eventho we ended late, i dun really mind, only tt im dead beat.. n just don feel like studying. hehe wats new?

2010-05-25T19:50:00.002+08:00

BROKEN HEARTED...

well, today is lab on full blast.. hehe it was nt bad, except for the fact tt im damn exhausted now.. :( n im sadder... tsh..

well, not to mention im so clumsy.. well, i fell into a longkang. a minute im 153cm above the ground, the next im 50cm shorter.. hahaah stupid.

2010-05-24T16:45:00.005+08:00

haish.. im sad.. there goes my one.. hehe.. too bad marinah, better luck next time. and, please nina, such bad luck.. shd shoo it away.. well, u, stay loyal to me ok? hahaha

ok, school has been. tudut tudut... oc mstats n hap turns out okay i guess.. just hap abit disappointin.. now, biomolecules is damn scarey, i think i screwed up, which i hope im wrong, my first few question n few other.. haish. wat a sad life. pipc is nt any better.. my dot n cross, i drew a bohr diagram. GEDDIT? BOHR DIAGRAM!

well, aniways.. went out wif my buddies last sat.. wow.. had a blast!! haha i miss u guys!! the next time we go out, we shd have a full squad ok dear?

sharing sessions... wow, i understand tt its not easy for any of us, n tt makes me feel tt i shdnt sigh any more nw.. well, evryone s gg thru the same thing, so lets b strong for one another ok! LETS MEET UP DURING CHALET N PARTEHH!!!

lets gear up n mug for upcoming term test.. wow.. time really flies this time round, it felt as if i only started school, n suddenly, we r olmost on the second term.. wow.

its weird.

2010-05-17T11:57:00.002+08:00

when its difficult, u just cant help but think, can i get thru this safely?

so im at home... sick again.. and its only like 4 weeks ago tt im down wif fever.. n im back wif fever again.. my immune system is surely getting worse.. i wish i cn stop being sickly.. my headaches are starting to act up again.. esp during classes.. hw i miss being wif bambinas who understand when i look like i have constipation. haha. nw, its difficult to explain things. nt to mention the difficulties just to submit the medical cert. general office all? haish.

i miss hanging out wif my buddies. supper excited abt the chalet. lets parteh!! hehee. my new pals are very kind n understanding.. just some ppl are abit diff to get along wif, but as they say, its okay. u cnt please everyone. lets just do well in my studies. tts most important rite?

studies... well, i think i totally flunk my pipc pop quiz. i wnt b surprised if i gt zero or somthing. OC quiz is nt bad, and mstats.. just tt i frgt to evaluate. haish.. dont let me start. n so, i flunk my hap also. the mcq is 2 marks, n i think i have a few mistakes.. which i hope is nt true. haha n then theres the integumentary part. well well. BMLC n PIPC quizzes coming up next, both on friday, lets hope dgn berkat friday, i do well. n wif some studying of course.

need to get back on track. Caiyo marinah! Himnae! Hwaiting to everybody else! we cn do it!

2010-05-05T23:08:00.001+08:00

he went... eventho i never say it, theres always a space for u in my heart, u r my family, n i love u. may Allah bless u n ur family.

innalillah wa inna ilaihi rajiuun

2010-05-04T19:58:00.004+08:00

a looong day.. at least its all labs n tuts. on one hand, i love tues, on the other, tuesdays always make me feel tired, annoyed, n irritated. in the morning ateast.

if i meet u someday, ill tell u y some labs just ____. for nw, ill just let it be, nt tt im forgetting abt it, just, ill let it rest for now.

wow.. we are nw in week 3, n week 4 theers quizzes.. n it still feels like i just started school. hehe.. i seriously need to catch up on my oc n pipc. oh did i tell u i screwed up like 2 pop quizzes, one during mstats n oc.. mstats, its nt as if the topic is diff, its just tt its hard for me to use a method im nt familiar with, n they dont allow other methods, so, plainly speaking, i screwed up. badly.

as for oc, minus the lab tragedy last week, the tutorial quiz isnt tt bd xcept for the fact tt:

i dun really memorize the periodic table resulting in + i dunno n cnt remmber wat i did = i have no idea hw i fair. lol

im still awkward wif sopme ppl, which makes me think n think, making me feel uneasy.. like do they think im annoying, or am i being too bossy, or am i asking too much question, do they like me, or do they just hate me... haish.. so talk to me ok, dun leave me in this misery.. mayb u really dun like me.

not to mention hw much i miss u bambinas.. wishin if i cn turn back time.. but i guess, everyone is trying to adapt.. well, caiyo everyone! do well n make each other proud ok? aim for the best dearies.

2010-04-24T10:37:00.002+08:00

wow, its only like the first week of school n everythings like WWOOOOSSSSHHHHH already.

in just the first week:

1-i landed myself in the kindness skit competition - due to some 'lovely' sabo-ing from a fren

2-even w/o the tuts, im practically dying out due to the late rehearsals n discussions

3-even with the so called good food, my stomach just wont digest it, so like almost everyday, i feel so paisey tt i cnt finish my food. ppl say its because of some trauma from the orientatn food. HAHA

4-good thing our efforts are nt wasted when we won!!! woots GUSTAV!! lol, it was unexpected. but we like it anyway. hahah

5-n the bear stoory just had to come by.

so its a very hectic week. with all the boring-makes-u-yawn-non-stop lectures, i need to find new ways to keep myself awake. mayb i need to do wat i did in tafser. i need a very good fren like naimah beside me. hahah

n my frens at tp are much the same, they are all nice to me... :) mayb some more bonding? i dunno, lets go wif the flow. wishin everything goes weell...

now i understannd y nini n nadia all never seem to stop talking abt hw n tuts... hahahah well, need to get back to student mode as fast as i can. cozz we have never ending quizzes in like wat, 4 weeks time? n if a week is this fast, im gonna need the time turner soon. anybody wants to go to diagon alley?

him: y do u choose sp as ferst choice?

me: hmm.. theres this thing abt heart tt interest mme....

him: huh? i dun quite understand.. wat heart?

me: ooh... nothing i guess.. i just see it somewhere.

moral of the strory, prepare wat u say, dun anyhow rembat. hahah

2010-03-12T15:06:00.002+08:00

chet.. no matter how long i sit at home in front of the comp.. ill always feel too lazy ot too tired to go out. chet. pemalas sey marina.

my weekends are full i shd say. this week got raidah's party, next got kak aishahs n abang is' wedding, then the week after mayb hong kong or jkarta? chet chet chet.

i wanto go hk.. atleast la.. but mayb im just going indon? too bad ayah said hongkongs flight is fully booked. tak confirmed seat. :( sad but ill try to b happy. they say gt more baju at jakarta. lol. third time olredi? i find it ok. its gonna b boring goingthere alone without sibling or frens. takpe.. ble korek duit ibu. haha

2010-02-25T12:44:00.001+08:00

i just wanto sit at home, n do nothing. hehe. but i guess, tts almost impossible. i shd b thankful aniwae. alhamdulillah. now its all better... ithink.

Miss n Misses

2010-02-12T13:03:00.002+08:00

i miss staying at home. waking up late. do nothing. hog the computer and all.

cheh... yarrite. yest was kind of a dun-even-dare-to-piss-me-off-coz-im-pissed-as-it-is day

heheh i admit i have really bad temper. esp yest.

i miss so many people. i miss so many things.

i miss my buddies, my pals, my friends and of course my bffs.

esp raidah, so long i never see u ley... congrats dear! u made it! :D heheheheh now go n gain weight!

I miss being in the class, crap talking with friends, n scrambling to our seats when we saw ustazahs' shadow. hahaha

i miss lepaking during zohor before our prayers, baring baring, bebual bebual, relaxing after 5 hours of studying.

i miss staying up for tests, n last minute hafaling in the bus, dozing off n snoozing my phone, not accepting the fact that i had to wake up for school. cheh

n surprisingly, i miss studying amaths, emaths, english, tafser, fiqh etc. writing notes. highlighting imp points. i prefer studying than working at the mo. cause its definitely n ultimately boring when u have to work on ur own. :(

oh, n i need to find the synonyms for sorry. coz ive overused tt word.

2010-02-03T14:02:00.003+08:00

i dunno how i can get so clumsy.

last monday: i accidentally let go of the switch-head(the three plug part) so it fell n DDAAKKK on my knees. OOOWWWW.... 3 dots on my knee?

last tuesday: i bumped my head to the bell-pole-stuck-to-the-window thing in the bus with a loud bang while sleeping, with a very loud bang, that the person who sat beside me turn to see if im okay. due to embarrassment, i pretend to be sleeping. how uncool. (how can u continue to sleep after banging the window?)

last wednesday: I knocked my last toe so hard that it bled under the skin. shd b, dolat.

last sat: burnt a hole on my black tudong. for the second time.

monday: help and cut my finger, while trying to help kakak cut broccolis.

tuesday: step on some random pipe, causing a couple to be ~~splashed~~ sprayed with water after a few seconds.

today: missed my bustop due to being too busy with my game on psp, causing me to alight at bedok int and take 69 back home. when i can reach in 10 mins time, i added another 30 min to the journey.

2010-02-03T13:53:00.002+08:00

Please please please pretty please. with hot fudge chocolate topping and oreo sprinkles.

dont send me short messages like: "ok" "ah" "yup" "yes"

i get really concerned so, ill b really irritatin after tt. people who know me will noe y. hahah

ill keep on asking, dun b angry, dun be mad, dun get irritated, are u hating me, are u angry at me so on and so forth. so please, seriously, dun make me feel uncomfortable if u are not angry. :( my bad for being like this. but i cant help it. i need to change.

2010-01-29T19:03:00.004+08:00

well, currently waiting for the result for D.A.E. I appealed for Biotechnology at TP, since i got Pharmaceutical at TP (My sixth choice. Geddit?). But now, Im not even sure if I should go here or there. If i get into Biotech, Ill feel a bit better about my course. But then Ill be alone. Atleast at Pharmaceutical theres Atiqah n Asmaa. But the course is abit -_-" to me. Well, We/ll see.

Show me the best path for me Oh Allah.

Next week month schedule seems okay. hehe. Ive been wanting to share some stories. LOL

-----

me: BlaBlaBla

tt person: waah. pandai eh? Y u So clever? Minum susu ape? Bye.

me: -_-" (thinkin 'ape dekni?') Oh bye.

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tt person: Oit! Y are you so clumsy today. I tot u pandai?

me: U people came lorh! So I kanchiong! normally im nt like this. ^_^

tt person: Waah, dah pandai melawan eh?

me: Mesti ah, I grew up.

then,

doing something clumsy again.

me: Oopsss! Sorry sorry...

tt person: Y do u like saying sorry? Grown ups dont say sorry. They say GO AND DIE!

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me: (Doe something clumsy again. Forgot to put properly n drag the switch all the way)

(then looked at tt person)

Go and Die? -_-"

I have to constantly remind myself y i keep on working. lol. Money bebeh!

2010-01-29T19:01:00.000+08:00

waaaaahhh... veeerrryyy long time never update horh...

well, im back!

2009-11-15T23:22:00.003+08:00

my blog is just so dead... hehe

well, finally the Os n shahdahs are over.. heheh cn parteh...

finally gt the job. but its nt gona b often i tink?

i hope its nice. so...

you are beautiful is nice. very.. shinwoo is a great guy! hahah

abg is so irritating.. hahahaha

so excited for the escape trip... hahaha

abg must b so damn bored. pity him. but hell survive i tink? hahah

so, the movie was super damn funny... i was laughing the whole time... lol. but the cinema wasnt full. hahah a good thing i guess since we were laughing like heck. hahaha

n bowling was fun too...

kalau hari hari mcm ni, bole jatoh pape aku... hahaha

n sorry to u guys... yg nk try to stop my blog song, i dunno y but this template is abt annoying at the mo. will try to change soon. ok?

see see...

2009-10-29T18:20:00.001+08:00

life is tiring

2009-10-25T11:06:00.002+08:00

wah, surely no.kid.

hahaha ramai gile....

ni baru lee minho... kesian org kat sane.. da mcm sardine skali kene cancelled. wahh.. overwhelming...

to u

2009-10-19T23:31:00.004+08:00

this song is dedicated to you, u noe who u r... chongmal, mianhae

im sorry...

to you... im v.sorry.

very very.

and i mean it.

i knew it long ago...

someday, there will b a time..

where my sharp tongue, or my my hurtful actions,

my ignorance or my expressions

will somehow hurt ur feelings

i change fast right?

my actions n my words...

u noe it.

i know u knew

i hate how i change hw i am when im wif u alone

n when im wif u, wif others

im very sorry to b such a disappointment

ill try to change...

you'll help me rite?

im sorry abt today

i truly am

im also sorry to all the others

who've always stand by me...

even after all my hurtful words n actions

my attitude

im very sorry from the deepest of my heart

2009-09-30T18:12:00.001+08:00

sad-confused i dunno

im sorry

2009-08-20T20:09:00.000+08:00

haila.. annoying aper blogger nik... mintak kene... cubet? hehe

prelims have started. supposed to be busy with all the studying... haha tapi as always, being marina, slacking... buat bende mrepek... haha

well, just wanna share my new blog song. Rmadhan Almubarak to all.... may we be blessed by Allah... InsyaAllah

randomness

2009-08-06T16:38:00.001+08:00

hahaha

za zainab is vely funny. gt what i mean? haha shes so random. macam mara tapi mcm tak...

we were discussing our muhadathah,tak salah about shld woman work or sumtin... so everyone was..

we: aahhh.. na'am.. likai... lakai...
za zainab: Ape likai likai? likairudin?
we: -_- kekekekekekek
hahaha random sey ustazah

then we were talking abt muhadthah nye exam order..

za: aah.. takde takde ikot register no. random jer sume!
we: AAHHHH???? AAALLAAAA....
za: ape ni?! maarif menjerit?!

random kan? lol. i used to quote za q nye words... skrg, za zainab kekek. haha za zainab seriously random abes. so our arabic oral next week. hahaa mesti bobal grammer tonggang langgang. nk carik word aje da susa.. haaha mesti kartun abes.

hahaha abey tadik, we had double dosage of amath.. 2 hours.. mcm nak peng....san. haha naimah kelaka... we were doing our tys as usual... buat keje sendiri, we were discussing abt sumtin.. out of the blue... tch ckp...

tch: Im a DOCTOR!
sume: -_-"
tch: im a consultant... .... any question cme infront ask..
naimah: =_=
hahahaahah sume muka, apekebende sey? teeteeteet haha naima da burst out laughing.. kekek

and since besok ari kebangsaan.. hahah buat kelaka.. instead of flag raising, we have pole raising. haha

well to singapore... HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!!

2009-07-31T22:20:00.000+08:00

hahaha! finally.. a new blogskin after gazillion years... haha.. im gonna change my blog song soon.. a few days b4 ndp i guess.. haha smgt. yay! very happy at the mo.

makcik!

2009-07-19T00:45:00.002+08:00

makcik is gonna kill me if i post that pic. tempted sey nak post gamba tu....

hahahahahahah makcik, kekekeke just saw the pic, so gay!!!! wig? yellow pants? hahahahahahhahaah'

be back to edit

infinitelly urs

2009-07-14T17:52:00.003+08:00

hahaha... to makcik,

in-fi-ni-telly yours! (with great difficulty) hahahahaha

later i edit. haha

ok back to edit

i should say this to another nenek also...

si mouse tu pon klaka. hahahah

sick

2009-07-09T11:58:00.004+08:00

im at home... sick... its starting to get itchy n painful..

sigh, why? when im only a fw weeks away to prelims?

well, on the bright side, i have more time to study n revise. but i doubt that coz they say its gonna get relly painful. the pics are gory. haha, its kind of funny. keke me n _____. haha da tue2 pon dpt. well, u guys wont see a lot of me. hehe, n sHafiqah, heh, good luck for ur oral, u can rest on my chair, dun have to hide behind that wall. hehe n guys, pray for me ok? :)

n to raida, happy hibernating!!! to kakak, looking forward to c u, i miss u too.. jgn ckp i action la. nenek ah u nik.

marinah :)

crappy

2009-07-03T22:16:00.006+08:00

i wanted to say this yesterday.. but i forgot... so now, im saying that....

im so gonna kill donghae!!! sheesh kebab btol mamat tu.. takpe swan.. main hoo na. lol

keke~ ok, jk. but still... takpela.. haha

ok, i talk crap today... hahah.. but it was a great experience. lol.... funny how things happen. well, its lotsa fun minus some parts...

the youth day celebration was a blast. hahah i crack up like heck during the acting.

"ustazah,nak minum air."

"mak saya baru beli quran ni semalam."

"pakcik saya nama tahir."

"jangan kacau la, tenga baca quran ni."

"ape mahmuda ni, buku maths yang atas meja?"

haha... the teachers are supper damn funny... lol, but somehow, its kinda true... im gonna miss school.... n the perf was gooood. haha they look so cute. cikgu... kelaka... taknk rapat. haha

lol, then headed to ziqa's house. lol... we walked so far i wondered how she walks everyday to school. haha.. tecabot kaki. reach there.. ate food. n my headache havent stop aching till now. planned to sleep at ziqas place but end up testing each other. keco banget.

reach there... late. haha but sume org mcm lambat. so no hal. scary.. we had to wait outside the exam hall... n keep on getting the look. lol... masyitah da, "takpela. orang nk blaja pulak." haha it was funny hw things happen to masyitah of all ppl. masyitah.. haha. oh, i was like, ape dekni? not masyitah btw. haha but seriously...

i talk crapily. nk doa, skali tengok depan ader cross besar2. takot sey. doa tak kabol. haha bobal crappy, but the topic was like... this cant b real... me n masyitah went thru SO MANY topics, n tht topic have to come out. annoying... tapi takpe...

genie girls!

2009-06-30T20:45:00.003+08:00

im genie for u frens ^~^

hm.. school is okay i guess... but i think everyone is starting to feel the heat of exams.. we have not more than 2 months till prelim.. then shahadah... then olvl.... wow.. its somehow seen that everybody seem to take their studies more seriously... at least i think i am.. well, trying i guess. hehe.. not many sleepyheads... good.

lots of homeworks to be done.. revisions... sigh.. its okay... bak kater nir, tak lame lagi.. hehe.. lepastu bley parteh! keke~

i miss going out wif my bff,, when was the last time we went out together? lol.. ages ago.. we shd really go online together again... :) i miss going out with raida... shopping for food... stationaries... haha... raida forever buying new set of stationaries.. diff coloured pens... buku tys la.. lol... eatin kfc. haha.. we always end up in kfc.

well, to my new row-mate, u really keep me awake. haha.. n i seriously can make syafiqah dissappear behind that wall. lol, n aisya, stop acting like a gangster eh.. nenek eh. haha jiran dpn are both superbly annoying... jiran blkg very the ----- haha. well, my new position is okay. :)

so to all my class mates, my beloved bff-raida,mira, kakak, kak yam and all the other readers... HWAITING!! haha.. for watever reason, u can do it! have faith in Allah. smile :)

tissues

2009-06-28T18:39:00.002+08:00

tissues r everywhere...

lately, my bin is full of tissues... tissues n more tissues...

sorry

2009-06-27T10:49:00.003+08:00

to you,

im sorry

im sorry for not being there

im sorry for saying that u will look at me differently

its just that,

for a normal person,

im just scared

just scared.

i noe u will always be there

i noe

but i cnt help feeling scared

im sorry to hear for ur loss

the mo. i got ur msg tht day,

i dun even noe how to reply

i want to say i understand,

bu im nt in ur place..

i want to say im sorry

but i dun noe if it will help

all i can do is pray for u from afar

im sorry...

for not being there

i noe its hard for u

i cnt picture myself in your place

im sorry im not there when its difficult,

who am i to say im ur fren...

im sorry...

i seriously am

words cnt describe my feelings

im scared

im sad

im sorry

and theres so much more

i hope, our friendship wnt stop here

or anywhere else...

fangirling helps!

2009-06-16T21:41:00.007+08:00

sebenanye tadik dara up.. nk blog.. tapi i guess, a bit of fangirling here n there cool me down. hehe

good.. im trying to ctrl my temper. so i may go quiet at times... but, beware, im scared ill burst out... n its not gonna b good... i bet. but takpela.. sumtin to post.. cute tahap ___ fill in the blank.. tengok la mataye sape... kak yam is so gonna b %^*&)& ape ni dik? ape nik? maksiat? lol.. atleast kakak understanding... kan kak? since shes also into kdramas.. XD they can be so... haha..

to makcik yg sure tau sape diri die, cute ehk post die? lol.. cute muke die.. mintak pinjam...

finally..

2009-06-13T14:39:00.008+08:00

finally, i can let out a sigh of relief, but it wont b long... huh.. well, life is like this... t least, it is over for now. :)

i seriously need to get my butt on the chair n start studying.. nono... ive been slacking again.. haiyya.. marina is so marinnaa... lazy bumbum btol aku nik..

n yeh, baru prasan.. marina bobal kt blog tak phm sey.. bobal bebelit. haiyya... kene improve sey writing n verbal skills...

lol... yay to mr swanny.. hes getting cuter. stoppit sey nin. lol. nini, aku ngok nurkaseh smlm, die air ble ah? hehe.. mamat abang tu cute. lol oh n niari ader bof.. yay! lol

current fav, hate you.. i like them jumping around.. haha.. cute.. hop hop!

i miss goin out wif my sizs.. come on kak! balek cepat! lpastu kiter klua k.. n kak yam.. laju2 la abeskan eam.. boring ah u exam.. haha

p/s: n to u buddy, if i cn get over this, u sure cn get over tht... remember my words... apape panggel aku *wink* lol nanti aku dtg bwk ________. lol. n if any gd news, blang.. :D

stronger mayb?

2009-06-13T14:27:00.003+08:00

then,

i vowed i will b someone strong.

i vowed i wont cry

but then i realize,

as time passes,

ive become someone cold

i slowly change

into someone i dont know

into someone i hate myself

the again i found out

you wont gain sumtin,

until u lose sumtin

so here i am...

trying to be someone stronger..

n slowly losing myself...

im sorry then,

ive hurt u most

i noe,

thats y im sorry..

im sorry to u...

n to everyone else...

i hope,

as time passes,

ill slowly find myself back...

"its only the beginning..."

2009-06-11T21:39:00.001+08:00

pray for me okay?

2009-06-08T22:47:00.006+08:00

NNOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GET AWAY FROM MY SWAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!-lol-

n on the same dy, i 'lost' my swan... so sad.... no...

2009-06-07T20:40:00.001+08:00

ya Allah.. memacam rambot... tak penteng eh nk blonde n brunette at the same time.. ahaha

2009-06-05T20:59:00.003+08:00

HAHHAHAHHAHAHAH

im seriously totally cracking up!! lol... how can he drop his mike? hahah.. kesian ki.. lol

i was abt to say that hes getting more... showy with the skin? lol... then suddenly he drop his mike.. thank goodness hk was there.. lol tula.. excited sape suro... but hk lose his timing aft that.. pity him.. n hes doing this stupid awkward steps... lol so the funny.. supper funny! jaahahhahacey.. kuang ajar aku.. but its too damn funny.. replay 10 times oso im still laughing.. haha n pls eh, pink n orange dont match.. irritating.. change la.. n hes looking supper hot :D only his voice is abit.... -fill in youself- at the start.. ;p

haha.. watch it urself watch from 1:37 ull hear the doom sound when ki's singing, the look on et's face saying -wat happened?- lol... then hk weird dance lol... abg doesnt see anything funny but damn it is.. c it urself! :D

lol.. jnghyn is crying so badly.. lol funny oso :D abg ckp, knape emo nah? lol

did i say this b4? once kan, iwas wearing my red tshirt with white track pnts... n suddenly abg finished mandi n came out in his red shirt n white track pnts.. lol... we were wearing identical pants... tshirt lain sikit ah.. but skali pndg, sebijik... haha.. n abg went: oit! ape seybok pkai same?

apejekan mamat tu? die yg pkai same... pleasela eh.. haha.. n today we wore the same thing again.. lol :D adik bradik la katekan..

2009-06-02T21:30:00.004+08:00

oh.my.

im.totally.officially.in.love.

im.sorry.i.betrayed.you.lol.

I.S n big.cancel.supper.big.unstoppable.grin.

2009-05-30T18:12:00.002+08:00

its too irritating...

to all of u,

damn its just TOO IRRITATING!

im tired hearing ur crappy talks over n over again...

same old line....

ive tried to b understanding,

as u said i shd b.

but h**l yeah its crappily tiring and irritating!

ok sorry for the breakout.. lol... coz i duwwanna break down if im taking my malay paper in like.. TWO DAYS TIME... seriously... its not the right time.

well./ i must b crazy coz im not relly revising... haiyya... im damn nervous. im supper scared abt the paper 1, but paper 2 is even scarier... gosh...

results are just plain crappy. well, its my fault. i shd study better next time n i MUST avoid thinking abt the crappy probs....

n to nir, ive found another guy to put in my book *wink* hahah... im crazy la dey.. traitor sey aku.. jonghun, my current wallpaper... haha.. crazy!!!

well, to the sec4s, happy studying, we can do this okiez!! to raida, get well soon!! jage diri bebaik... satisfy ur cravings... lol n to my dear sisters, good luck on ur exams.. :)

2009-05-22T18:40:00.005+08:00

Before,

when things were down

when you were helpless

u ask for me

u said it wont matter

n now

when everything is okay

u put the blame on me

is it now all my fault?

is it now me?

when all your worries are over,

is it all my fault now?

is it my fault im worried to death because of them?

is it my fault i couldnt do anything else then?

is it my fault i couldnt sleep? i couldnt focus? i felt so worried?

is it now my fault?

all my fault?

was it me who cause all these?

was it me?

before u said its okay

life isnt just about that

before u said u understand

my pain my worries

but now its my fault

n u repeat the same old reason

the same old mistake

the same old line

n u said u understand

i guess not

2009-05-16T01:32:00.004+08:00

i think im crazy.... well exams are finally OVER!!

please eh ppl, especially to sumone named marina. tak penting eh nk stay up sampai kol 140 am. sesungguhnye besok ader skola.... jgn mreps ble?

saket ah blkg tlinge... cekak nik irritating ape.. shd remind myself to get a new hairband.n i need to get a haircut. ah.... sabar marina, one by one.

i slept for so long just now.. darik magrib sampailah kol 12 tadik... lamer sey.. baya balek ape yg tak terbaya time exam.. haha balas dendam ape marina? ganti balek sume tdo... but now, i have nothing to do. i cnt sleep n no vids to watch. no idea wat to watch... haiyya!

im scared.... bout the bio papers esp. padehal b4 i used to be scared abt amaths... tapi skrg bio.... i just hope i will not fail... sedey sey klau drop dari a2 g d7.... :(

currently dunno wat to look forward to... oh yah!!! kkotboda namja! yay, nk jumpe mataye no.... hm.... nanti ble buat list la kan. :D

p/s: im not angry... its just frustrations... it will be over soon.

2009-05-14T19:19:00.007+08:00

im sad but im smiling

im relieved yet im crying

i relli need a break

too tired

hehe

anyway.. wats wif the momma tell me? i was cracking up like heck when i heard that. :D

i was about to post about this but nir beats me to it so ill just quote hehe

Nina ; Nir,aku jumpe URL untuk kau.cintapermatozoon.blogspot.com

Nir ; -.- Better cintaneurilemma

Nina ; Cinta for neurones ah maknenye. Lainla kalau lead kau name nur-ilemma.

Eh sdap name dia.Nur-Ilema binte Mohamad Sheath. Haha.

Nir ; Kau ah buat. Tapi pakai Nur Ilema lead pmpn, abey Md Sheath de peh laki.

Nina ; Bolela,pastu anak lain letakla Siti Flagellum,Ahmad Ovum,Fatin Endometrium.

Nir ; Oi tebalek la. Pondan bapuk ape anak kau. Patut Siti Ovum, Ahmad Flagellum.

Lepas tu cucu Nurul Carpel dengan Ahmad Stamen. Hot pe name.

Nina ; Aku ade lagik. Siti Cilia, Muhd Nur Peristalsis.

Nir ; Oh tanak kalah. Aku kasi twin peh name. Sedap gile. Al-Veolar dengan Al-Veoli.

Nina ; Aku pun ade untok identical twins. Ahmad Artery dengan adek die Muhd Arterioles.

Kalau fraternal,pmpn Nur Dendron dengan Ahmad Dendrites.

after that i was talking to raidah n i gave her some of the names for her children, keke

ahmad spermatozo and fatin ovum.

kekek.. tis is wat happen when the bio information exceed ur brain carrying capacity

but still i did badly... marina.. be prepared...

i want that thing!!!

2009-05-13T15:13:00.002+08:00

hehehehehe im giglling like heck.. lol. yesterday's mv was the leaked version. abes potong part hankyung. haha.. you're both rite! hahah.. no wonder got no sound at ferst. lol

ok heres the official one.. tengok! kekeke

2009-05-12T15:34:00.002+08:00

im giggling like crazy.. damn hes hot!! ekkeke sorri peeps.. starting to get irritating again. but seriously tengok. nir, tengok matayer aku cute. hahaha

2009-05-07T15:33:00.003+08:00

dont you ever look back n see

hw this is just nt abt you

dont u ever stop to think

hw life does not just revolve arnd u

y dont u understand

y dont u ever think twice?

im tired

im seriously tired

im tired of pretending to b strong

im tired of pretending to b cold

im too tired

i wanto say its ok but i noe its not

i wanto stay be strong but i noe i cnt

i wanto cry but im too tired

i wanto help but im too tired

please...

2009-05-07T13:54:00.003+08:00

im ~~patiently~~ waiting...

2009-05-06T17:32:00.002+08:00

something thats been accompanying me....

MySpace Playlist at MixPod.com

im laughing but im crying inside...

im waiting...

2009-05-01T12:20:00.002+08:00

my eyes are red n swollen...

my heart is in pain

how i wish things r better

but i noe life is not a world of flowers

i look at you

hoping you wld soon realize

but i got my hopes up

just to fall back down again

i dunno who to turn to

mayb not u

i want to talk

but the words fail me

i shld not cry

i warn myself

i shld be strong

i told myself

for them,

for me.

i shld stay strong

i shld have faith

maybe this too will go

maybe this too will pass

i hope u will soon find

wat you are looking for

n maybe you will find the right path

to continue leading ur life on happy notes

2009-04-29T00:19:00.005+08:00

its currently 12 20 am. n im in front of my comp.. pagal oledi! hehe

im taking a i-dunno-if-its-a-well-deserved-or-not break. currently at the managing sustainable ourism... trying my best to finish by 2 am... haiya.. im worried... well pray for me ok.. i need to go.. my 5 mins is up! :D

aja!aja! to tomorrows paper!

2009-04-26T10:27:00.000+08:00

im sick n tired of trying to please everyone.... everytime i vow to myself ill ignore everytin, i will always find myself trying to please them time n time again.... i shd stop stepping so low in their eyes... sigh... i need my b.b... nw... i shd stick to just them. n u too... mnrh, thank u for being there.

2009-04-24T20:00:00.000+08:00

hehe... updated my blogs song.. iv been wanting to put up this video since i dunno when.. keke... currently addicted... weguluhnji molla...

i find nickhun's purple costume disturbing.. wif the crab leg dance.. haiiya...
i was relly addicted to the song on that thurs that i keep on pestering mimi to listen to the song.. skali time p.e klua... wah.. mimi was like, mouthing, "ini?" from afar. haha.. i was like.. yar... keke... pagal oredi. i was partly shocked when i first heard the tell me song.. wah relly huh..

so this have bn an okay week.. only i need to revise more... im happy abt my tauhid.. i was expecting a faill... coz thats the day i cnt tink due to my lack of sleep.. but wallah.. amiin... but my tafsir was disappointing. sadly... i seriously need to buck up.. sirah too.. so many things to hafal... haiyya...

but everyone went crazy just now.. haha.. telling stupid jokes like this is house wat is that?> marinahs house... u won geddit.. haha... mayb bcoz we were already laughing so hard even the lame jokes r funnier coz it aint funny... geddit? hahah... but as tch wld say.. signs of stress... haiiyya... exam mah tomorrow.. sigh sigh...

OH YEAH!!! THEY WON!!!

2009-04-16T21:12:00.000+08:00

im seriously trying o kill myself! keke.. kidding frens.. no worries.. i mean my exams.. n the test tomolo... memain eh marina... haha.. baru je ckp ngan raida tadik budak baik tak main comp on weekdays.. haprak pon takder... haha.. raida... terase nk bace blog awkla...

So, happy belated bdae my dearest raida... i never wish u tru my bloggy.. keke... so my seriously skinny fren, eat more okay.... hehe.. i noe u hate it wen ppl tell u that... well im sorry im that irritating.. keke... n seriously, when i say u r stroong enuf.. i seriously believe it.. but anyway, i love u... more than u think... even if u tink ur not strong enuf... Allah will help u thru.. believe in Allah n believe in urself. u r gonna make it! caiyo raida! as u always say... this too will pass... tak lame raida... Allah wants to give u sumtin more... we will all pray for u.... everyone loves u... ur family, ur frens... ur buddies.... n ME... i noe im not much of a help, bt ill try to lend my shoulder as much.... Go raidah!!!!!!!

2009-04-10T23:03:00.000+08:00

i dunno if i shd say this... but i ~~hate~~ that person.. im sorry. i dunno if im being biased or wat.. but damn... i hate his attitude now.. all bcoz of her. pleasela.. u cn find sum1 better than her.. y her? y sum1 whos leadin u to h**l? y nt sum1 to the right path?

so aniways... happy birthday to abg.. n in 30 mins.. happy berfday aya!! man.. everyone is growing older... well... i dun get them anyting.. but i bake for them yest..

thnx khairiah for the recipe.. i dunno but im the only one xcited abt the cake.. abg n aya were like.. uh.... ibu lagi baik.. drg malas nk layanla... apaperla.. anyway.. my ferst time baking on my own.. huehehe... i get to use all the baking things... hahaha... fun fun... well the cake is nt that bad afterall.. jadila jugak.. but everytime ppl cut the cake... everyone took the mnm part. ibu lagi bagos.. she didnt eat the cake.. but she took all the mnms.. hehe... thats abt all.. i have to go to sleep.. bio class tomorrow.. sigh.. see see

they didnt win again.. sad can?

2009-03-25T21:11:00.001+08:00

lessons to all....

never eavesdrop to people's conversation in the bus... its not gonna do u any good. seriously.

lesson #1: never eavesdrop to people conversation in the bus... be grateful if theres someone talking but in a diff language... at least u dont understand

lesson #2: try very VERY hard to distract urself if someway somehow u overhear wat the people or couple is talking abt.. for eg- doing stupid multiplications in your head, making up lame riddles, reading all posters in your view etc.

lesson#3: TRY UR VERY BEST to not laugh when u hear a very very funny/lame jokes/ seriously.. u dowwana be caught laughing to a joke made by some stranger for another.. it is so embarassing that u would wish u die.. or even sink into the ground.

lesson #4: If someway somehow u cnnt ctrl ur laughter, avoid their gaze... coz they noe u are laughing at their joke, and u cn pretend u r laughing at a very funny sign, even if the sign u r looking at is, NO FOOD OR DRINKS. or even, talking from experience, pretending to sleep.. while standing up? i noe thats lame.. but who cares, sum cn sleep while standing up.. even if thats not u in real life... they wont noe rite? wat the dunno wont hurt.

lesson #5: if u noe the stranger noes u r laughing at them, please alight at the next bustop... u dowwan them to look at u with the WTH face. its VERY EMBARASSING! no kidding.

so this is wat u call talking from xperience.. its not funny when u r the one who's standing there, overhearing a couple who talk cheesily n suddenly the guy said, "siape band tu? yang my dad suke? bugs? yg macam thundercats?" he means beatles.. like alleycats. bt which stup guy dunno that? u cnt help but laugh rite?
well.. trying very hard to control the laughter.. i make up sume stup jokes like, wat do u call a nut so hard to carck? nutdia. wat do u say to a monkey wif no hair? use yun nam hair care products... etc.. u see wat i mean by desperate measures? see see.. its greatly embarassing!

2009-03-13T20:06:00.000+08:00

AAAAHHHH!!!!! sorri to everyone who feels uncomfortable n will give me that 'look' tomorrow.. but i need to scream. sorry. ill bear wif it tomorrow. hehe

mamat nie hensem kan? lol

geeky pic

AAHHHH!!!!! omy! siwon is so cute!!! ah.. manly kapa mamat tu? fishy is so geeky wif those specs.. damn, i cnt catch kibum in the why i like u... heck, baju drg gerek! lol.. but eunhyuk nye baju klua crappy in the LD video at yt.. ryeowook so cutely manly.. haha such thing? kyu hensem k.. haha. habes marina.. u r so dead tomorrow klau drg bace.. lol..

i didnt noe kyu sang after siwon in sorry.. n his mannaBWAA~ lol.. n they changed clothes.. waah.. damn im going crazy.. sorry sorry.. the ending is really good.. wif heechull hahaha// lol i tink choreography sorry better.. but who cares. lol.. i love them still.. sorry ppl! velly illitatin. hhaa the MV WAS SUPPER GREAT! SIWON HENSEM RABAK!

actually i just woke up.. troz bukak comp.. eee.. marina da gile. haha.. i was practically jumping out of my seat watching them. sorry eh to those yg tak phm.. watch the vids. :)

my month/week/day have been good so far.. just think i shd do sum reflecting... n im very looking forward to 2molo's secret project.. huehehehe... go ppl.. its a mimi! lol.. not amira.. secret dey.. hehe... miracle tkde hw.. but i seriously need to do all the revisions.. im slackin. olevel marina! buck up! lets go!

p/s: actually kan dah berazam tanak buat keje mrepek.. but they got me xcited.. sorry2

2009-03-06T20:55:00.000+08:00

i have so many things to say... so many thoughts... the pressure, the worries, its gonna make me go crazy

i dunno... all of a sudden, im getting so tensed about os.. since we have abt a month left to the mid year examination... its making me go crazy... i keep on thinking hw i shd start studying... mayb i shd relly start.

yet the worries... the regrets.. how i keep on doing things i regret... saying things i dont mean. giving ppl the wrong impressions, hurting others, im trying to cool down.. i noe alot of ppl hate me.. im irritating.. i admit im hot tempered.. everything ppl always say.. shameless. im sorry to those ive hurt. im sure theres a heavenlot. im sorry.. i tend to b more aggressive with the ppl close to me. im sorry...

i miss raida.. i miss all the things thats slowly n gradually disappearing. it hurts when ustz q said we wre happy to leave school... no im not. i hate all ths separations, i dunno how im gonna live thru...

p/s: i miss u more thn u think, im sorry i cnt help u much. it hurts .. im counting days...

2009-02-23T20:40:00.000+08:00

just feelin whiny~

aperkedahak tak penting.... so today, as owaiz, i was high.. tho tired... smlm tak seyhat.. otc. lol. i slept early yest, arnd 830, angan2 nk bngn kol 10 la... haprak pon tadak... so in the end, i continued sleeping, abey skali terbangon kol 330 pagik tadi, troz mcm org tak seyhat.. lol. i open my eyes, troz reflex action sey.. (bio kape marina) troz pi bukak lampu dudok atas meja buat hw. hahahahah..phm tak? bngn troz buat hw. lol. tk g cuci muke broz gigi pon. troz terpikir, engkau nie seyhat tak marina? haha.. troz matikan lampu sambong tdo. hahhaah

as owaiz tak tau dok dendiamm time assembly. talked to nir time bio. lol.. die suke jihoo.. ah.. suke kim bum jugak.. :P ohya, nadia tak ckp die suke sape. lol. aisya kater nir gatal. lol... aiyoyo nir... hahaha... anyways, my malay vid was mrepek... in the mrepek kind of way.lol. sorri members, n thnx for tahanning my bossiness n merepek ness.. n irritatingness... sorery yar. anyway, i might upload the vid sumwhere. la8r lar currently doin my bio notes.

ok, today's app is damn toot...
i got home at 145.. i was rushing like heck... lol.. mandi mcm kerbau. solat pon mcm tercepat.. (ASTAGHFIRULLAH marina.. bak kater u.samia, apeni budak madrasa...lol) so we were rushing to kkh. n then phm tak, ble we reached we had to wait lor.. as olways, dpt masok arnd 4... n then klua tak sampai 10 mins l8r. nk tau asl? die kater the prev doc from clinic k, the one yg saw me b4, wrote or told wrongly or sumtim. since im alreadi referred to the neurologist i shd have stayed wif that doc. n its no use comin to the app... phm tak? buang mase, tenage dan duit... hw i wish i had the old doc, this girl doc is a bit.. waddousay? apaperla.. n i got mc aniwae.. for the whole day, klau tadik tak dtg skola pon takper.. lol. but cnt la, i ponteng too much this yr.. nonononono. lol

btw, for the ferst time in my whole life, i find shindong hair decent... prrrr.... i love siwon's hair? even not much diff, he looked cute. lol

2009-02-20T23:33:00.000+08:00

AAAAhhhhh!
malunye!!!!
if only bole nmpk weight malu kiter, sure da kiter tersink into the ground!!!!

ahhahahahaha
ok here it goes, theres an arina in my cntact phone, so i smsed her... last 2 days i sms her abt sumtin, i cnt remember, the she say, eh, sape ni? so i say... um.. marina? ni arina kan? the she say, yarh...,oh, marina

then yest, i forward her the surp plan for sya n naii yg arini, n she say: eh, sala anta msg eh? i was like, uh.. tak ah.. lol

then tadik i smsed her abt malay, tellin hw i cnt go in... i smsed her many times, then she reply: eh, sala anta msg lagik?
i was like: uh? no? awk arinah kan?
she: ya... u marina like? marina yg ane?
i: ya, yg S4P. u? arina mane? lol
at that point, the only other arina possibility is arina yg sec 2
her: uh? s4p tu ape? u from yusof ishk sec school kn?
hahahhaai was like? wathe!?
i: uh? alamak.. i tink ismsed the wrong perso.. sorri2 lol.. i think i smsed the wrong arina
i was thinking, mcmane bole tersasar jaoh nik?
she: eh? wrong num? mcmaner ble dpt my num? pelik jugak org get my num (i dunno her exact words)
me: uh.. i think, u r my bros fren or sumtin, or mayb last time my fren gave the wrong nu.
she: who's ur brother? pelik plak ader org tau..
me:zulhilmi... sorri tau... buat malu je..

hahaha lol.. im so paisey mrepek sey marina.. crapaholic btol.. lol.. iklil was laughing like wat. haha
iklil, i updated oredi... lol malu!

2009-02-14T16:28:00.001+08:00

wat shd i say? life is extremely tiring lately.. wif school n stuff.,

well, just now went to the parents-teacher meeeting... mann.. its making me nervous n all... it so scary.. i cnt believe it im actully in sec 4... waah.. da besar ape ;D

nk dgr criter tak?
ibu: harini nk pegi camane?
me: hmm... pegi je kat tengkat satu.. nanti ader kawan usher... ibu ckp je class adek kat drg.
ibu: adik class ape ah?
me: (apenik anak sendiri pon tak tahu ker?-face)(naik kening)
ibu:(ape?-face)
me: ckp adik class sec 4P
aya: ahh? adik pink eh? asal 4 p?adik sec 4 eh?
me: (huh?!-face)apapejer.....

lol.. phm tak? terserlah ke________ ibu bapaku..

well.. kat skola was okayokay... minus the stress, balek lmbt, lack of sleep, i enjoyed my arabic project. malay pon boleh2 la..
funny incidents at school.... the amaths.. lamer sey pe criter..

me,atika n naima copying corrections.
teacher: marinah...... how ur paper? many mistakes ah... etc...
then teacher looked at tika
teacher: atika, wheres ur paper?
atika: (show paper) here teacher!
teacher: wheres ur test 1 ?
atika:(show same paper)
teacher: ah cannot! Separate!
then she koyakkan the paper! in front of our eyes! hahahahah.. i was laughing wif naima like heck

then teacher mari sala my paper so i called her
me: teacher, this one correct u noe...
teacher: oh ya... red pen? atika red pen?
atika: (give teacher red pen)
teacher: (open----- skali terpeca the pen.. the ink shot out.. )
hahahaha
velli funny!

then nadya criter psl daya n her..
daya: (tengok comp sya) apesal bambam? die tembam tembam jadik bam bam eh?
nadya: ape mrepek? kau mmerepek meraban jadik die pekban

hahaha.. so the velli funny. haha...

raidah oii....

2009-01-30T21:02:00.000+08:00

it hit me hard on the head... right to the heart. murderously painful...
im sorry if im nt much of a help.. im sorry if u think im too happy.. but i dowanna make things worst... make it harder...
it make me stop to think, that anything can happen, to anyone. b4 when i read abt some other strangers account, i felt bad, sympathy, but it stop till there.. i never ponder hard enuf... to really wonder, how it wld feel to b the person...
even to not b the person, to become the family or fren, i wonder how its gonna b best to lend a hand... im sorry if im nt much of a help..
tell when u need a fren... share when u feel hopeless... cry when u feel down... so that i noe how u feel... as a fren, i want to help...
be u my family, my closest frens or my hi bye frens... i want to noe if u ever need a shoulder to lean on...
i love u all... u r my bestest pals... may we all b under His blessings...
p/s: pray to Allah, coz He is the ONLY one who can change everything. EVERY SINGLE THING.

2009-01-26T21:07:00.000+08:00

ive said this time and time again... this is our o years...
sigh... behind that, its our last year.... our last year together as a maarifian.. if either of us continues wif pre-Us, it wont be the same wacky, irritating, noise, cramped, overloaded class anymore...
im gonna miss my frens... despite being stressed n tensed, i wish i would never forget that this is our last chance to stand together after wat for me is 8 years... for others nine... we've got to noe each other even better after years together... as years passed, more n more things are discovered, more laughters... more joys, more tensions.. all those period where we all go haywire... haha

remember all those time where we all go crazy and high during amaths period?
remember all those time when we complain abt how our hands hurt due to the note writing during bio which is making us go biol? =D
remember all those time where t.banu told how we shd see the wonders of maths, take care of our friends n help each other?
remember how we all go kanciong before all those hafalling subject's test?
remember how we all gagged when u.zainab taught us in english n go gaga at herself?
remember how the class used to get tense when u.samia was teaching, n how nowadays we laugh so hard at her jokes?
remember how we enjoyed cikgu wartinah's stories? n how we laughed when she went, "eh, da abes mase?"
remember how hard we cracked up at ustz qania's jokes, even the slightest ones?
remember how we used to b scared of cikgu dibah? thinking she's scary?
remember how we used to ask stupid question to u. shikin during fiqh period?
remember how we used to do gerek projects, skits, presentation during t. muz eng lessons?
remember how we begged teacher ziza to watch movie during eng lessons?
remember how t.sarina treat us to mcds n walk to mcd?
remember how we tend to put our heads on the table during those u-noe-wat lessons despite trying to stop ourselveS?

there are so many memories.. so much i would need the rest of my lifetime to write them down. i love those memories n would love to continue to collect them.. for the time that's left.
they say, when u leave the school, u might say u wanna get together n so on, bt u wont have time... but i say we will make time... to stay together
they say, end of secondary years is another whole new chapter, but i say, lets create another lovely chapter with all the older memories n ppl in mind. how i love u guys... n how i hoped we would forever b together.. lets create history by staying together for the longest time... a new history where ppl say is impossible... lets stay together for a lifetime my frens...

2009-01-20T13:07:00.000+08:00

hmm.. at home again... on mc.. so i have xtra time to finish my endless bio notes.. :(

im getting back to school tomorrow... uh.. marina, bnyk ponteng sey taun nie.. nanti minggu dpn cuti lagik. preeepeeeppeeeeepp... i just don love u no more~

the urot session was... PAINFUL!!!!! haha.. my leg is currently red... blue black b4. haha.. went to the doc, gave me mc n am free from P.E for 2 weeks. hehehe... finally... in my whole life, ferst time free period... cey bedek ehk marina.. auta betol.

kla, i have to get back to my notes.. sigh.. :( im nt ready for the Os....

2009-01-16T14:42:00.001+08:00

so currently im at home.. while the others are at school.. its emaths currently rite? sigh...
im missing school again... second time, in just two weeks.. haila marina, macam mane nie.. tahon nie nk exam.. abey macam nie.

Oh Tuhanku
berikanlah ketenangan abadi
untuk ku menhadapi
dosanya hati ini
mendamba kasih insan yang ku sayang

currently listening to this song.. im in nasyeed mode.

sigh.. i miss school again. so, i have a sprained ankle? ankle eh? apapela.. yg penting takle jln.. tula, smlm excited sgt, main fox n chicken. u noe how u hold onto the person in front, n how the person behind hold onto u, so when i lose my ctrl, n sprained my leg. i heard a crack.. but i ignored la.. masok class as always.. felt the pain... but time solat tergerak nk tengok. tula, time dudok ngan mimi, org pon bukakla kasot.. bengkak besar.. mcm belon.never had a sprained leg b4. n i tink the pain multiplied by 4 at that time. looking at my leg.. i just feel like *****g. haha.. taktau knapela.. amira ktawer.. dah sec 4 tengok kaki bengkak pon nk ******. haha... mcm budak kecik.

so i took the cab home. raida sya n nadya teman me. pity mimi. if only she live in the same route.
raida took the cab home while sya n nadya took buses. i gt home... abg laughed at me. kuang asam punye abang. but hes good enuf utk anokan the ice tingy... i never knew sprained ankle could b that bad.. slame ni aku tenok org lain sprained tak apape aje.. lepak je jln walau limping. marina troz takle jln.. bolela.. but i hurts damn lot. haha.. raida n marina, the limping best frens.. me, raida n mimi laugh like heck. drg kate dolat main2kan raida psl wheelchair. skrg tengokla.. haha.. amira paleng tough among us, me 'mental' prob, raida backbone prob, now me n raida go limping.. tapi amimi cool je.. hahah... dektu jato pon mcm tak pape.. at least mine is nt as serious as raida... pity her..

when ibu gt home, she scold me.. haha.. kene mara.. ape ko buat dek sampai terselioh? abg da: nta.. die pandai sgt.. aya pon:apekene sampai jato? haha... kene nag.. apeda, saket kpale kene mara, saket kaki kene mara... , bukannye aku send invitation card kat penyaket tu... apeda... ;)

ibu mara ble adik ckp nk g skola bsok.. she kater mcmane nk g skola klau engkau nk pergi toilet pon lompat2. kau nk lompat g skola? haha.. kene mara lagik. cecece... ayoyo marina. bt then i tot 2moro shd b better rite, so i still set my alarm at 540 as always... skali bangon, mcm ader earthquake dlm otak.i think continuation of last night'd. so, mayb i shd listen to ibu afterall.. so at last i didnt go to school... sigh :( i relly need my bio bookk... so i had to finish half of my notes during school day.. :(

but mayb im comin to school tomorrow.. tanak pegi urot! abg kater yayi urot saket. :( he laughed at me again.. kuang asam die!

2009-01-10T22:56:00.000+08:00

first n foremost, lets recite alfateha for those in Palestine.. may Allah b wif them n help them thru. Amiin..
i was out today... wif mum. we went to eat at arnolds.. yay! hehe.. talked.. n wen i cnt finish my food, she said, makan sampai abes, org kat palestine takde mknan... yar.. i shd b thankful.

the ferst week of school is vey tiring.. comin back home almost at 6 everyday.. but i tink i endured the class after zohor better this year. last year my mind would definately shift of to cloud nine, but it seems like this year, i put my attention to my studies, only i convert those sleepiness n exhaustion into being irritating n hyper. it makes me stay awake. i shd apologize to those who gets affected due to this conversion. hehe...

i like my position in class. its not too hot n its quite bright. good for me. sittin beside raida n atika, mimi n daya n siti nabiha in front, nir, nadira n iklil behind. :D lol. its fun lor... raida shd b irritated wif me.. haha.. i keep making noises.. irritating. mira daya n atika wld join me that is.. making raida more irritable. nir behind. haha.. she had to sit alone time bio. pity her, i realize her sitting at the back alone, so i told her, ala.. syiannye dudok sorang... u noe wat she said? tak ape.. da biase sesorang(dengan tangan dia n bahu buat action tak kesa)... haha.. action kuat la pulak mina nik.. haha...i used to sit beside her rite last time, n we used to write things in our book time bio. doodle stuff.. last time when in science lab, we would talk abt kc stuff.. haha.. remember?

so a new year it is... a new path to take.. new roles,new responsibilities, new goals. im hopin for the very best... i shd stay positive n cherish every moments wif my classmates... afterall, we only have a few months left. we've been together for so long, since im in pri 2. that makes it, 8 years... even tho my cliques changes.. since pri time, i tend to get closer to everybody in sec times... waah.. i hope our frenship will never ever get wasted.. lets keep our frenship strong. :D caiyo!

2009-01-04T17:32:00.001+08:00

ohmy.. im currently watchin wonderbang perf. takle stop. cmane? i tink i dun like sunmi. :( ok tak penting. :D haha

oh.. new year ladey.. besok da start skola nampaknye.. tapi nampaknye im going for a hol nt long after that. ;) hahah.. i wonder who's gonna b our form teacher next year.. n the os. its scary... sigh. i need to buck up sey. marina, caiyo! :D hehe..

last few days, i went out wif mimi n sya.. to do my ic that is.. i look so tembam in my ic photo. dorg kater ok. haha.. i did lots of stupid stuff... org kan dudok mengadap the black mirror kan time amek gamba, i was abt to dudok mengadap the white screen.. ok.. mrepek.. haha.. malu2.

then we went to eat at ljs. hmm.. nice2. then mira had to go home, so me nsya mrayapped at tm. lol. we taked abt 'this' year.. hah.. tough2. hm... its our last year together mayb. i will cherish every momonet together wif u guys. :)

so.. just wanna share this video.. i love how taeyang sang the song.. junsu sound so.. ermm.. u listen to it urself.. dgr tau.. its in eng.. :D

piano? love it :D

2008-12-27T00:29:00.000+08:00

haha.. i had lots of fun...late updates tho... due to slight inconvenience wif the int.. haha..

the party cum gathering! lol....
yest, i woke up n pi siap2... then i went to raidah's place.. haha.. kak yasmin drove us to whitesand.. haha... met sya n nadya.. n i got hyped.. wif all my frens.. kak yasmin was relly funny.. shes hungry n wanted to buy food.. raidah kater pi bli barang dulu.. n she was ala... lapa.. raida da, u wont die.. lol. funny2.

we bought stuff... n aisya had to push the trolley after i abandon the trolley halfway in. haha.. the trolley was loud.. me n nadya keep crackin up.. we could hear aisya from miles away. hahaha.. seriously.. bising giler.. bak kater nadya mcm bunyik train.. raida da, tak baik korang ehkk.. haha...

then after we got to raidah's place, we had.. breakfast? haha.. then we bake the brownies.. lol... it was fun.. mule2 i sat at the sofa wif nadia while raida n sya start the baking ting.. nadia was figuring out the rub.cubes. i was forcing her to think of games.. i told them to play the 'curtain' game.. but they keep on laughing.. haha.. curtain games... lol. then after sum time, we abandon the 'thinking of games' n we helped raida n sya out. nadya, sorri i said things abot the parkinson. seriously, it was a no offence statement. :l

atiqa arrived ferst, followed by zee n others.. wyda came but didnt come in since she's in a rush. we played uno attack... while raida played sum songs. lol. ader lagu when i grow up. *angkat kening* hahah... n toxic-britney. n zee n the others start requesting for korean songs. lol.. n when the nobody song came up we did the nobody nobody part. haha.. immediate reaction?

we ate n play bluff-wif the uno. n sumtin happened to the cake.. haha.. but its fun. lol. memorable. :D we played my curtain curtain game. lol.. dorg da.. marina nak main game curtain2. haha... the two grps were relly funny. me n raida hold the curtain... both groups are, shd i say creative.. haha... kelaka tengok drg wrap themselve up. nadia nye grp pkai bantal sume buat territory... motif? lol. aisya nye grp plak asek berselubong.. kiter ckp theme die org arab. lol.

then we played qaqa's game... n they sat in a strait line.. trying the same actions. its like, when i saw cook, the whole grp must have do the same action w/o discussing. nadya nye game main cheat. haha... its like, when i say katak, the make the letter k with their finger, lipas with l. haha.. cheat! then we played another game where the grp sit in a strait line, n every member, taking turns, have to do a work, like how to cook mee gorng, n the last person will finally have the mee cooked. nadia nye grp main tipu agi... haha.. they will go like, the ferst person will take sumtin, 2. heat the kuali... n when da sampai 5th,which is second last... drg masey like heating up the kuali, they'll go like, put all the bahan2. hahah.. n that person is always qaqa. i call her the problematic one. die yg slalu last min humbankan everytin... haha.. but vey fun2.. by the end, me n raida da takder suare from crackin up too much. lol.

i finally bought my twilight...

when i gt home, ibu bought me crocs shoe. hehe... well i enjoyed my day... alot.. meeting all my frens... i wanna get back to school. just to meet my frens n not study can? lol. thnx for all the prezzies... i love them all, but i love my frens n family more. i appreciate all the thots, n i wonder how im gonna get thru since we r left wif one more year. thnx again.. pic later, after raida upload k. =)

prezzies.. to show my appreciation.. :) i hope i dun miss anybody's out.

p/s: trying to finish all the harry potter books by next week. currently on prisoner of azkaban. i noe.. i think ive read it like a million times.. but just feel like readin everytin again b4 startin to read twilight's series. :D

2008-12-23T17:11:00.000+08:00

ok buddies....

hehehe.. nie ader mengejot nye invitation.. sorri ehk.

so kiter ader gathering cum bday party(erk.lol) this thursday,25th dec. its at raidah's place, (pelikkan bday kiter ruma raida...) the add: blk 425 Paris Drive 6 #o2-97. its at 2 pm. all sec3ps , zee, hady, all included okay. so u ppl cn tag me or msg me or email me if u r comin so we can have enuf food to pass arnd. rest assured its no xmas party.. haha.. no foam party. bubble bath can if u want. ok crap ehk marina. n dun b paisey to tag/sms/mail tt u r comin. since its on a short notice, jgn lmbt sgt k blang. the earlier the better. any inquiries cn tag/sms/email. lol.. lets have lots of fun! games...ahhaah... apaperjeko marina. :D snacks are welcomed :D

p/s: kak yam, raida kater u nk dtg dtg ahk.. :D

2008-12-19T21:53:00.000+08:00

finished cleaning up n tidying up my files n book n stuff. n did sum reflections while doin it. sigh..

haha.. now im in love wif a new guy.. haha.. i seriously shd make a list. :D the last time i checked it was tengku amir but it changed... yesterday? lol now im in love wif edward watever-it-is. lol.

ahh! yesterday was fun. :) i met raida in the morn. she bought her special bodyguard. lol. well yeah.. we talked.. alot... abt things we tot abt doin next year. how we r not prepared n all... how i pity her.. shes gonna have a hard time adaptin right. i wish i was more of a help.

then wen we reached school i was even more excited to meet the other frens.. excited n hyped. haha... then after buying sum clothes n books... sya nadya n me planned to go tm. i wanna waste time. pity raida cldnt follow. tot of her alot tho. hehe... then we agreed to watch twilight. sya's idea or nadia, i dunno.. then suddenly tak jadi.. then jadik. haha.. fickle hor... so we went n buy tickets... n then sume lapa.. so pegik mkn. apaper jela.. lapar sgt that we didnt look at the watch.. its like 1 ehk? n the movie is at 1 40. n we havent eat n nadia havent solat. lol. chaotic. lapa kot.

but while waitin for our order to come nadia g solat... n when she gets back.. we ate.. then we went gv.

OHH!! the movie was great. the place was packed.. was it firsdt released yest? i didnt noe. but i just love the movie. tinking abt buyin the book wif the popular voucher we got for yescom. -thnx, school btw.- yar.. but im in love... i keep on nudging nadia n sya. nadia said i was mentel. lol. n the boys in front are seriously funny in the wth way. haha... i cracked up watching them laughing.. apapeje budak budak nik. heeheh.

i had a great time wif u guys yest... lookin forward to another time liddat! :D thnx nadia n sya! n raida.. miss goin out wif u! :D baik cepat2 k.. :)

ill post later abt the chaalet.. i need top look at the photos ferst.. its uploaded.. its just me.. kla.. gtg. nanti aya mara...

2008-12-11T20:24:00.000+08:00

im having goosebumps after watching this video.. arh! hahaha seriously... haha

waah.. their perf was... cool.. lol.. nutin much just wanna say that.. :D

btw.. im in love... with tengku amir. hahahahah.. seriously... go n watch kayangan.. kat crunchyroll ader.. those who love to read novel must watch. hahah

2008-12-11T14:01:00.000+08:00

haha ni plak gamba dari ancient egyptians..

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